I guess this is "my why"...or just my awkward way of explaining myself. 

I picked up my first oracle deck at the age of 19 at Hot Topic (typical teen in the 90s) because it had Amy Brown's faery art and the fae was always something I connected with. I was completely fascinated with them, and they sent me down a rabbit hole filled with mysticism most girls around me were not engaging in. I always felt out of place in their world and didn't find community in the esoteric realm till 20 years later. Luckily, the world has changed as bit and it's beautiful to see.

I have a fun spirit, but I have a little darkness within me as well. Significant losses in my life have left me this way, but they have also given me such a gift of empathy that it has helped me be a better medium for my sitters. When I came to terms with my abilities, I decided to utilize them to help others. That was when I became a Reiki Practitioner of traditional Usui Shiki Ryoho Reiki in 2020. 

When I got through my cancer in 2022, I started to realize that everything I was doing in my energy work was really meant for me. I built my toolbox to fight. I was able to take all I had learned and use it to help me through accepting my diagnosis, making the best of my time leading up to my surgery, keeping myself positive, create boundaries from negative energies, and all the self-healing possible.

My friend Anne's podcast, Intuitive Stardust (Episode "I am Magnificent") led me to the book, “Dying to be Me” by Anita Moorjani. It was all about her near-death experience during her own battle with cancer. She is a believer that your body reacts physically when you're not taking care of yourself on the inside. Although I did not have a NDE, this did leave me to understand that I have not been taking care of myself.  **not making money here, just passing along their offerings**

I have not dealt with a lot of the past traumas in my life.

I have not allowed myself to grieve properly for the people that I have lost. 

I absolutely believe that if you do not take care of yourself on the inside, mentally, physically, and emotionally, you can manifest an illness within you. I think Anita Moorjani is proof of that and so am I. When you spend your life swallowing all the hurt, loss, and trauma you have been through and never face any of it, eventually it will turn into something you can no longer ignore... like cancer. Looking back on other illnesses throughout my life (even on a smaller scale) in myself and others, I have seen this often and in a variety of ways. I don't believe this is a rare situation, but a common one constantly overlooked.

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If you feel like you’re in need of guidance, I am here to let you know you don’t have to face your difficulties alone.